It’s Week 17 of Finish This! If you’re new here, welcome. This link-up is hosted by LISA (COASTLINED), JEN (The Arizona Russums), BECKY (The Java Mama) and I.  If you’ve joined us before, thanks for returning and add your post to the link-up. If you don’t have a blog, don’t fret. Answer the prompts in a comment. Next week’s prompts are at the bottom of this post.

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My last growing pain was…
recently admitting to myself that I can’t be someone’s friend. There is a difference between giving up and knowing when you’ve had enough. My role as wife and mother is not as much work as trying to be close to her. This one-sided relationship is exhausting. I’m done losing sleep trying to figure out what I can do to make this work. Instead of worrying about it, I’m focused on Husband and Kamden, my family, and the genuine friends in my life who love and appreciate me for who I am, not what I have. I’m also incredibly grateful to the folks who are present when their presence is important. Stick a fork in me, I’m done.

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I grow and nurture…
every day being Husband’s wife, Kamden’s mother, and God’s beloved child. These responsibilities are blessings from above and I wouldn’t trade them for anything in the world. I am nurtured by the maturity and experience of others, living as humbly as possible, serving others who have nothing to give in return, and exposing my heart and soul for the world to see. Albeit, at times, my heart has been broken but I’ve always gotten back up and thanked God for the lesson. I’m currently in a growing season where learning a life lesson is difficult but necessary. I’ve invested a lot of energy into a relationship that is one-sided but nothing has been reciprocated. It hurts. I am a very loyal person, but when I’ve been hurt and disappointed more times than I can handle I’m done.

The guilt-free snack I enjoy most…
Lactation cookies probably don’t count but I succumbed to temptation and made a batch last Saturday, probably because I’m an emotional eater. What’s better than a sweet treat laden with carbohydrates to soothe a fat girl’s belly? Let’s be honest: I don’t need a “boost” in my breast milk supply, it’s above abundant, but these cookies are damn good. They’re amazing chocolate chip cookies with whole oats and flax seeds for lactation. Actual guilt-free snacks I enjoy include fresh strawberries and pineapple, homemade granola, and soy yogurt, even though the yogurt has more sugar than I prefer, it’s a great way to get probiotics. Dr. Oz recently promoted white bean extract as it stops your body from breaking carbohydrates down into sugars and storing them as fat. I need that in my life … unfortunately, it’s unsafe for pregnant and nursing women. JUST MY LUCK! In other news, but not really a snack, I’ve become a serious water drinker. When I found out I was pregnant, I stopped drinking all caffeine and sweet tea. Yeah, this Southern Belle has not had sweet tea since May 19, 2013. I deserve a medal. Nowadays, I’d rather have water than anything else. I refill a 20-ounce water bottle all day every day, easily consuming 150-200 ounces, which helps me produce about 50 ounces of breast milk every day. Just call me Bessie, the milk cow!

The best reason to stay up all night…
before I became a mom, I’d stay up all night to read. It’s also fun to stay up late playing cards or board games with my mom and her two silly sisters. We have the best time together. Now, I stay up late to pump, wash/fill bottles for the next day, take a hot shower, enjoy some quiet/alone time, or edit blog posts. I honestly don’t mind getting up around 2:00am to pump, because the house is quiet, I can read or work on blog posts, or scan Pinterest without a worry or a care.

If I were stranded on a desert island, I’d…
swim and snorkel in the ocean, wiggle my toes in the sand, build a fire, catch fish to eat, collect rainwater to drink, and find a tree that miraculously grows Charmin Ultra Soft toilet paper instead of leaves. It’d be awesome to have a solar charger and wi-fi access for my tablet so I could keep up with this Finish This link up party every week too. #justsaying

Now it’s your turn. Answer these prompts in a post on your own blog or, if you do not have a blog, simply add your responses in a comment. Join us next Wednesday for another round of Finish This where we’ll answer the prompts below!

Prompts for WEEK 18 (May 7) are:
 I feel an adrenaline rush when …
I feel energized when …
I feel small when …
I feel big when …
I feel indestructible when …
I feel stupid when …
I feel smart when …