Oh man, I’m struggling. My life isn’t lollipops and rainbows – whose is, really? – and that voice inside my head won’t be quiet. You’re not good enough. Eat some bread. You’re not worthy. One bite won’t hurt. You need to try harder. Skipping a workout is okay. You’re weak.
Needless to say, today I am in the Book of Psalms. I am grateful for David, the shepherd boy turned king, and I admire his heart for God. David wasn’t always the best decision-maker, but neither am I. He was just an earthly royal who worshipped the King of Kings.
Sometimes when I pray, I can’t find the words I want to say and David’s psalms really help.
Give ear to my words, O Lord; give heed to my sighing. Listen to the sound of my cry, my King and my God, for to you I pray. Psalm 5:1-2 (NRSV)
God hears my prayers. Even when I have no words, he knows what my heart is saying.
I sought the Lord, and he answered me, and delivered me from all my fears. Look to him, and be radiant; so your faces shall never be ashamed. This poor soul cried, and was heard by the Lord, and was saved from every trouble. The angel of the Lord encamps around those who fear him, and delivers them. O taste and see that the Lord is good; happy are those who take refuge in him. Psalm 34:4-8
When I set aside my plans and selfish desires, I am attentive to God. When I am attentive to God, I can discern His voice and less likely to give into temptation. The Lord surrounds me with the kind of love that no earthly material can satisfy. Words of praise are sweeter on my tongue than food. He is what I need; God sustains me.
Teach me your way, O Lord, that I may walk in your truth; give me an undivided heart to revere your name. I give thanks to you, O Lord my God, with my whole heart, and I will glorify your name forever. Psalm 86:11-12
My heart is often divided. I want to do what is right in the eyes of the Lord, but I also like filling my stomach with things it craves. I have difficulty letting go of control, especially with my taste buds. Low-hanging fruit is ever-present and so tempting.
Bless the Lord, O my soul, and all that is within me, bless his holy name. Bless the Lord, O my soul, and do not forget all his benefits – who forgives all your iniquity, who heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit, who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy, who satisfies you with good as long as you live … Psalm 103:1-5
The Lord loves me. He blesses me abundantly. With Him, I can avoid tempting foods and feast on His Word instead. My life is full of goodness because of Him.. (I need to repeat this 736 times a day!)
My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. Psalm 73:26
I fail every day to live up to my full potential, but I am empowered by The One who sustains me and loves unconditionally. I don’t need extra servings of stuff – food or materials – because God is the portion I need.